Emptiness

 

Emptiness, it is a feeling or state of mind that is rarely talked about. It is when you are neither sad nor happy, you are just empty. Being genuinely happy is a beautiful feeling. When compared to emptiness, being sad is also bearable. But emptiness, it’s when you feel nothing. When you are happy, you feel good. When you are sad, you can either overcome it or fall in deep. But when you feel empty, there is nothing you can do about it. You just sit there feeling nothing. Emptiness is scary. Sometimes it’s peaceful. But most of the time, it is difficult, it’s painful. It’s like being shut out of your own mind. It makes you go insane. It makes you cry. It makes you shout out for help. You feel lonely even when you are surrounded by people. It’s like being underwater minus the diving gear. You see thousands of fishes swimming around you. But you are floating in the midst of them, confused and alone, an entirely different species. You never seem to want to get out of it, because you are far more comfortable with the familiar pain than the newness of the outside world. It pulls you in deeper and deeper until there is nothing left in you to fight back. But it is mostly around this time that you realize that you have given it your everything. You start fighting back. You start trying to swim out of it. You do it all alone. You fight with your own mind, your insecurities, your fears, but in the end it is you who succeeds. You make your way out of it. You finally taste what it is like to be happy, to be sad, to be bored, to be mad. You do not feel numb anymore. You become surrounded by the beautiful feeling of love, happiness, peace but also sadness, anger, and boredom. You start living again rather than just existing. 

~ shreya.